“i paint my lips blue and dye my hair pink - none of these things i have to rethink - i’m manic so i drink. i slur my words and buy myself a diamond necklace - i’m fully aware that i’m being reckless but i can’t stop. my heart races and now i’m wasted - i send pictures, naked. this curse is disguised as a blessing - i’m finally not dealing with depression and this is my confession. i love this - it’s euphoria and, right now, i don’t give a fuck about the damage i cause - i refuse to take a pause. this isn’t eternal and i’m insane - i’m carnal - i do all of this in vain - look away.”
